Grateful

I feel grateful for today. An old friend that is no longer my friend told me once "Every time something happens that seems to ruin my life, I just think at least I'm still alive."


Today there was a shooting on 188Th and PAC Highway, Taco Bell at 4pm, and someone died.

MRHS graduate William's car accident. It could have been any of us, my friends or your friends to get hit by a drunk driver.

In retrospect, if these people were to be told that they would die on a certain day, do you think they would live their life the way they did?
If someone told you, you will die when you're twenty years old, would you really give a fuck about grades? Or your SAT scores, what boy is going to text you?



One time me and my best friend got ditched on one of our club nights. Our buddies had to study.
She said to me: "If I died tomorrow morning, I could honestly be happy. Happy that I didn't spend my Friday night doing homework."

I don't really know what I'm trying to say.

The beauty

I want to prepare myself for life so that after my inevitably amazing 20s i can be happy being old. I've come to realize that my whole life I've been looking forward to my 20's so i can party, drink, have sex, and make my own life. What about after that? Oh ya... i should have kids, get married, work my office job etc etc. UM no. If i find the secret to finding the meaning of my life then looking ahead to my older years wont be so depressing. I want to help people and make a mark to become a minor celebrity.
Final note; my biggest fear is getting old. (and saggy)